First week is over

And i lost 3 pounds!!!! woo hoo. I was happy about that especially after my extravagant weekend. Just think if you lost even 1 pound a week in a year you would be down 52 pounds. Sounds good to me:)

After the Party.......

Well went to a party this weekend. Drank way to many points but managed to keep my snacks under control. I have my first weigh in tomorrow and im terrified that i not only did not loose but gained. AHHHHHHH!!!! The vodka tonic is my enemy in this bout with WW. I will update tomorrow going to bed now...

xoxo
G

Day 4.....caffine withdrawl

Well today is ok. Its HOT HOT HOT! My daughter is at her grandparents so i got to sleep way in today (1pm) got some laundry and cleaning done and ate pretty well. No caffine untill my mom was bringing me home an ice tea after work. Well they gave her sweet tea instead!!! I dont like sweet tea and it has enough sugar in it for 17 people so i just tossed it and made my own. Waiting on ice cubes to freeze though and my head is killing me.

I was supose to do something with my crush tonight. It got cancelled was back on and cancelled again:( I hate that. Tomorrow will be great though. Going to the BBW party get a room and my friends are coming to swim with me. My crush is supose to get there about 6 so we will see. In boy time that means meet ya at the party ha ha ha. Oh well im going to try not to worry about it and just have a super good time.......

Day 4 is much better then day 3 and hopefully the days to follow will get easier and easier just have to get my body used to smaller amounts and less junk......ill post pics from the party on sunday......have a good weekend

xoxo
G.

Day 3 of course

DAY 3 SUCKS!!! Well its really not that bad I am just hungry. I just resorted to eating mushrooms with viniger on them because it is zero points and makes up for the chocolate chip cookie i had at lunch. Luckily a local resturant has a WW menu with some great tasty options and my mom and i are going there for dinner tonight. Yum. I am a big night time snacker so i like to leave some points for the evening so i can do that. I feel proud of my lunch choices. half a sammy instead of a whole and one small cookie instead of ten. Ice tea (unsweetened) instead of pop and fat free dressing on my salad. Im hangin in there but day 3 SUCKS!!!

On the points system with WW you get 35 flex points a week in addition to the 34 i get per day. You can bet your life that i will be using those points on alcohol this weekend:) Maybe ill mix up some crystalite lemonade to go with my vodka rather then using juice or tonic. I really hate that diet taste but the crystalite is decent and if its cold and i drink it fast i wont even notice ha ha. And im sure to get plenty of exercise on the dance floor too;)

Im including a pic of my beautiful daughter whom i am sure i will mention a lot in this blog. Shes the best!!!

Day Two

Day two is a good day. Other then the headache im not too hungry. I am sure its my body reacting to lack of sugar, calories, fat, caffine, blah blah blah. I figured out that a can of coke is 3 points. I get 34 points a day. 3 points for my liquid crack is SOOOOO worth it. Although if i buy a case it might turn into my whole days allotment going to coca cola ha ha ha.

I am going to a Luau BBW party this weekend. I am very excited. Its Saturday and I treated myself to a room at the hotel its at so i can get there early, swim, go to the pure romance party, drink, and hang with the boy im crushing on;) Woo Hoo

Someone asked me yesterday if i think i will be treated differently after loosing the weight. Of course i will. Ive been down this road before. Skinny Gretchen can wear guess clothes and has a flat stomach. People respond to that look better. Fat gretchen can carry a guess bag and has a mommy stomach. People turn away from that. And while i am sure i will gain self esteem and attention when im thinner thats not my sole purpose of doing this. Plus the person i am crushing on now likes me big so im not worried about that lol.....i refuse to stay big though because someone likes me just the way I am. I have done that before and it led to a 40 lb weight gain.

Now the last time i was thin was 2001. I was in an abusive realtionship. Food was the only thing in my life at the time i could control. I finally dropped him and my friend moved in with me. She also brought 3 lbs of cheese. 7 years later im more then 100 lbs heavier then i was then (i blame the cheese) I am also happier then i was then. So this time its not about control its about feeling better and being able to wear an XL or an L instead of a 2X. I was also 22 in 2001 and i had not had a baby. So i know i probably wont ever get away with a tube top and no bra.

Now i can say all day its about health and feeling better and setting a good example for my daughter and it really is. But ill tell you what it will feel damn good to go into a store like the limited and not be treated like im nothing..........

xoxo
Gretchen

Day One

Well i have begun the weight loss journey. Mind you this is like the millionth time that I have tried. One of those times i got to my goal weight and below. That time i started at gasp 205 pounds and got down to 155. This time im starting at 276 (double gasp) and hoping for 190. It wont be fun and it wont be easy but it will be worth it.

What makes it worth it this time u say? My daughter is the simple answer. I never want her to struggle like my mom and i do. I want her to see a happy healthy mom. That mom does not have to be skinny but she does need to go for a walk without huffing and puffing and getting a headache. I need to set an example that i am proud of.

In my mind im skinny in pictures im huge and somewhere in between is the reality that is me. I will note my journey and would love any tips and advice along the way. I am doing the weight watchers points plan. So watch out when u see me ill have my points calculator in hand. Please please do not ask how many points something is before i put in in my mouth. If im eating i know why and what i am eating.

Today has not been to bad. Its already 2 and i have 21 points left. Im a little hungry and have a slight headache from lack of coca cola. I think that will be the hardest and i may even allow my self one coke a day (i will count it of course).

I will include pics throughout the blog and hopefully this time next year i will be under 200 pounds! thanks for your interest in my journey

xoxo

Gretchen